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i suppose in both good and bad ways. but today in particular, i feel stressed. like there's a pressure bearing down on my solar plexus that won't cease. it's all just one thing after another, while in the meantime lots of exciting things are happening. i'm turning 25 tomorrow, i just spent the last two days as the key PA on an atlantic music vid shoot for this dallas band, which was a fantastic experience. i was in NY for 5 days, although being back it feels like i was gone for an entire month. work is fine. i'm staying relatively busy performing moderately interesting tasks, but i'll need to ask for a pay increase soon or i'll have to start looking for something less fun and more lucrative (probably). most of this money worry is compounded by the fact that starting tomorrow, i'll no longer be covered by my mom's health insurance. not to mention the fact that i now have a car loan. this part of adulthood licks cow balls. real big ones. i'm sad about haiti. i've been playing with this loop pedal and sampler that were very generously lent to me. that is REALLY fun. i've finally begun wading through the massive amounts of photographs from israel so that i can narrow them down for my show in june, which i'm super excited about. so i'll continue to focus on productive things, while weathering my mini-quarter-life-crisis. let's get a drink. holler.