one day baby we'll be old and think of all the stories that we could've told

well, today is a little different. call it lazyness if you will but i've only got a brief report of events. i realized some things this weekend that merit more respect. we went to the shoshana in natanya this friday after hanging at the sub kuch for some time with some nice people with good hair and tall frames. i realized that janez is kind of a douche and that's a pretty relieving little fact. i'm glad to be over that. anywho, went to the shoshana and practically passed right out with roni. woke up to some really nice things and burekas. took some polaroids and hung out in the lovely ocean breeze. alice, roni, and i decided to watch into the wild. i'd never seen it and it would be an understatement to say that it impacted me. the fact that this young, ambitious, intelligent person declined everything anyone but nature had to offer him, escaping the stronghold of society inspires me beyond measure. i wrote my thoughts in another place, but it meant a lot. got me thinking. i needed it.

after the movie, i was in a different place mentally and emotionally. we watched the sunset, and it was one of the most beautiful moments i've ever had. later on, we played some guitar, and a plural game, before eran drove alice, edai, and myself to tel aviv so i could meet my brother. i walked in the mall and from the escalator up, i spotted my bro and yelled his name, we both ran to meet in the middle, him upwards, me down. it was such a sweet moment. we couldn't stop hugging. i was so happy to see him. he's proud of me. i am proud of him. we ate some food and arms around each other, took a great polaroid that i can't now seem to find. but we decided to meet their birthright group at a beach bar called, la mer. the music was terrible, but i met a very interesting person/musician. and of course, i got to hang out with my brother and indulge in some nargilah which was more worth it than anyone will ever know. once it was time for them to leave, we hugggggggggged and said nighty night. alice and i walked to the sub kuch and hung out for a long long long time before her soccer partner picked us up in his loud, fast mazda or something. it was really a funny ride.

we got home at 3:30AM only to wake up at 8AM for a trip into some ancient caves. i was not excited when i woke up. pretty grumpy even. but we went and it was really cool. mostly dove breeding caves for food and fertilizer and caves to keep the dead. really interesting. then we went to a tank museum, containing 160 tanks from around the world, including the new mach4 top secret israeli tank. eddie would have loved it. i told him i'd take photos. after the trip, we came home and imanuel stopped by to hang out and share some israeli music and photos from his travels. he's a really cool guy. glad we're friends with him. so fucking funny. went to bed late after reading a great article about chris mccandles, the kid who inspired into the wild.

alice and i had a great talk last night. i won't get too into it because it's something that's very personal. what i will say is that i find myself doing everything for approval in every aspect of my life. i'm tired of it. there have been times when i've not cared what others thought. i want to get back there. to think for myself. to create things for their own sake rather than what others think. it's just fucking bullshit and i'm better than that. that's all there is to it. and allowing myself to get sucked into the petty concerns of life. even relationships. it's time to wake up. be strong. be me. ok. i'm glad she's here. i get challenged in good ways. it's important to talk about this.

today we went to volcani. i fucking love it there. and rachael is my favorite. alli and i realized today that even if a grown man fucked with me, rachael would kick his ass. that makes me proud. i pulled weeds in the field. it felt good to get dirty and sweaty. i spoke to the woman about getting jobs after the program is over in two fucking weeks. she said she'd look into it. that would be great. after we got home, i called marissa because she is my best buddy and having a hard time at law school. i just want to give her a hug and tell her everything wll be fine. i just want her to be happy. she's just sysiphus on the mountain. now i'm napping. talk soon.

love,

sally